oops.

Slightly big oopsy doo there, I connected the blog to my patreon and did not anticipate 150 blog posts coming across. Yikes. Apologies if you were thinking I’d gone post crazy. Don’t think it’ll happen again (but then I didn’t think it would happen in the first place)


My studio is located facing the outwards at the front of the house, behind me my bedroom and my son’s room. So I heared what I thought was my son come up the stairs when the following took place:

me: “hello Thomas”

Wife: “It’s not thomas, it’s me”

Me: “Oh. I’m heading out at 3 for a walk with Jim”

Wife: “3? that’s earlier than you thought”

me (thinking) “that’s a weird way to respond to that”

me “Yeah. just the usual”

wife “Do you need any money?”

me(thinking) “Why on earth would she offer me money?”

Turns out she was having a conversation with Thomas (also going out at 3) and I couldn’t hear him, but I could hear her.


Speaking of Thomas, owing to the appearance of the Sidemen on netflix (which I keep mispronouncing to sound like spider-men) we’ve resubbed to netflix. So we’re cancelling paramount+.

One in one out for streaming for me from now on. Though even when you do cancel you end up with around a couple of weeks of streaming on credit (easily the best thing apple ever did for subscriptions, and I’m quite sure no company would’ve ever let you do that – have you every tried to cancel an adobe subscription early? madness)

Our tv watching is so diffuse now we’re all watching different things, nobody watches anything together, and honestly, it makes me a little sad. Sitting watching quantum leap with my brothers was one of my fav things growing up as a teen. Or star trek, even. Shared watching was great.

Another fine example of technology doesn’t always make things better.

(Have decided to try and burn through the last series of Star Trek Discovery, which I liked the first series of, and it got more and more weirdly convoluted each series. Star Trek: Brave New Worlds is a banger though)


One of the things that became obviously harder over the pandemic was the need to cook two meals every single day for a family of four. I suppose we could get away with sandwiches at lunch but even then you’re still cooking at least seven meals a week, 31 meals a month and 365 meals a year (and double those numbers of a sandwich isn’t going to cut it). Obviously, It can’t always be spag bol. Though it frequently is.

And I actually enjoy cooking, but it’s time consuming. One great thing about being in the new house (over a year now) is getting the new kitchen complete with dishwasher. It’s only small, and we frequently need to run it twice a day, and god knows what that’s doing to our electric prices, but suddenly a big chunk of the dishwashing burden is removed, and you have more time to cook.

So, to that end I’ve been trying to do one from-scratch side dish every so often with a regular meal, and seeing what new things I can do. At the moment I’ve had a right old go at Hassleback potatoes (almost no hassle at all and so pretty!) and potato dauphinoise, a little more work, and need some basic ingredients, but actually pretty simple and very nice, especially with steak (or chicken … or any big chunky main thing)

Anyway I grabbed both recipes from the bbc here: https://www.bbcgoodfood.com/recipes/dauphinoise-potatoes (I find about 250 cream and 250 milk with three large potatoes does three/four people comfortably) and https://www.bbcgoodfood.com/recipes/hasselback-potatoes (it calls for garlic and rosemary, I just did mine with a bit of butter and again a big ol’ baked potato) and actually if you’re doing a nice dinner, I do recommend doing both kinds of potatoes cus it’s pretty easy and dead impressive…


And despite spending two days traditional paper and ink, I’ve gone back to digital. This constant oscillation between these two states annoys me more than you’ll ever know. I lack the space to give over to both fully, and even traditional is tight for space, but it’s so much more satisfying to draw a GOOD line with ink, and yet I’ve got to face facts, I think my digital inking is better than my pen and ink…

Spider-Killer

From my new weekly web comic series “Null Space” – you can keep up with it over at www.pauljholden.com/series/null-space  

(I’ll try and put them here too, but if you wanna cancel your patreon, that’s cool – on the other hand, it’d be really cool if you didn’t then I could passivily collect some dosh for just doing silly comic book stuff without worrying about it!_

A4

I have spent yesterday and today making a fun little zine. I tend to do a small print run and drop them off to some local comic shops and see what happens (what’s the worse that could happen, right?)

It started with the idea of using an A4 sheet to produce something, I thought “micro-fiction!” that’ll do! So I took an A4 sheet and did exactly that, I fancied the logo being right in the centre with stories wrapping round it, and it looked like the above image (you’re getting a bit of dredd in there too!)…

Then I tidied it up a bit and typed it up and dropped it in to Affinity Designer (which I’m not terrible comfortable with but figured this isn’t THAT complicated) then it hit me, I could fold the comic around the central logo 

And it worked surprisingly well! In fact if you fold it right it’s sort of self standing, making it it’s own little presentation thing too.

Anyway, some hand drawn images and now we have this…

And you can have it too…

(The trick to folding it is fold the left side behind the logo, then the right side then do the bottom and then do the top and boom, a freestanding ‘zine)

Well April got away from me.

I’ve barely tracked what I’ve done and it felt like I did nothing. Partly just down to me not being abkle to keep the workload straight in my head, but it turns out I did more this month than I expected (with the caveat that I can only invoice for completed pages (pencils and inks) and I need to do about 18 to make enough money to pay the bills and service debts and pay the tax man every mont).

So the top level how much work is pencils: 24 pages, Inks 14.

I finished inking Wormy and Me – a 10 page short for Ahoy comics.

Then I pencilled and inked 12 pages of Dredd – two episodes (I though I was running late, but two in a month is ok)

And finally, pencils on a Medal of Honor story (true stories of American soldiers who’ve won the medal of honor which pay ok(ish) and require an insane amount of research not to mention the moral headache I have every time I do one – so this is the last one)

And, upon discovering that I’m due to have a leopard from Lime street finished, I ended up pencilling a chunk of that over the weekend. It’ll be late, but the editor tells me I’ve plenty of time.

Didn’t enjoy not tracking it all, week by week I like knowing if I’ve done enough, this month I felt like I hadn’t (and really I sort of haven’t)

Outside of that, we filmed part of the short film we’re doing as the final poart of this short film course for making short films I was on. So that was a fun non-comic day.

(Yesterday was the 28th year of me meeting my wife, so I didn’t do much work then. just lots of emails first thing in the morning)

Coming up this next month:

Dredd ep4 and ep5 and finishing leopard (6 pages of inks) and inking the Medal of Honor stuff (maybe – we’ll see)

No time for fiddling in the world of the 64 page digest, nor even for doing this other creator owned pitch. I need to have a 48 page month before I can bank the time to do anything else…

Anyway, new month, let’s go

Fascinating Folklore

Thought you’d like to see the cover… it’s gonna be a gorgeous looking book. 56 comic pages, linked to essays, each essay has been individually hand designed to integrate with the art, it’s properly lovely looking and I’ve seen and felt the quality of Liminal 11’s other books, and they are incredible. Very excited for this.

Witness

So, the 64 page graphic novella has a title: Witness.

It’s a fun thing to write stuff. I frequently forget because I do it so little. For me it’s all a puzzle box, how can I tell the plot in the pages I have, lets split them up in to sections, how to get from that section to this section. Eventually you get it all vomited up and then you start looking for what your story is about, early doors I introduced one new guy into this band of fierce soldiers and it was gonna follow him, from the kickoff I had him as the toughest dude around, he proves himself by beating the crap out of everyone else in the room. Then I wrote the whole thing and realised, no, this makes a lot more sense if this guy is unsure of himself, and they don’t trust him – so he went from someone who introduces himself by telling everyone how great he is at combat, and flying (which sets up the fact that later he’ll be the only one capable of flying a ship) to him becoming someone whose great at combat and flying – as per simulations and written exams, so entirely unproven.

Anyway, I’m gonna give you the prologue – right from the start I wanted to show a team and then for them to lose one person so our hero can step in. 

Warts and all, is what you’re gonna get, so here’s my prologue notes:

Prologue, we establish how tough these guys are and what a formidible team they make. They are introduced to the new guy, “Green” – the new guy’s father is a well known politician, and they don’t understand why he’s with a bug hunting crew. Green, determined to show he’s committed tells them he’s trained in close combat, alien biology, explosives and is a grade 2 pilot “holy shit, that’s more than you captain!”

Because this was a draft, I hadn’t really realised the prologue was really that first sentence – everything after that is part of act 1. Prologue then became a seven page section. Nice big intro page, then trying to make use of the fact odd numbers are page turns, I set to work with the bullet points:

Prologue

  1. Opening scene, epic battle, troops vs alien creatures, on an unknown planet, the sergeant turns to us and screams “Vasquez!”
  2. Vasquez, chewing a cigar, hears the sarge shout “Light em up” we pull out, Vasquez Vasquez, “With Pleasure, Sarge!”
  3. We see aliens, burn, we watch as the troopers lay fire in to them.
  4. One of the troopers looks happy as a clam, firing into the monsters, We see behind him a creature has escaped the fires.
  5. Cut to another trooper, he’s shouting over “DeMarco!”. Demarco turns, but is gutted by the creature from behind.
  6. The original trooper blasts the creature to kingdom come. And runs over to DeMarco, who’s essentially cut in two.
  7. Demarco, close up “It’s getting dark” trooper, “Man, you good, you good, stick with me Demarco, we’ll get you home”. Pull out to reveal DeMarco is missing most of his insides.

I thought that was a fun little seven pages – couple of good big actiony splashes and a neat little twist trying to give a reason to go from page to page and especially get you turning the page.

Next, scripting this (I’ve literally just scripted this first seven pages, we’ll see how it goes when I get a full draft of the script done)

Tried to stict religiously to the bullet points (and for clarity, this is digest – about A5 size, so I can’t really do too much in one page)

Page 1

Full splash, a team of eight soldiers (though incl Sarge we’ll only see seven here), being led by the Sarge are attacking some sort of weird bug like alien which , there are hundreds of bugs clambering over some sort of civilian transport. The sarge has turned to us and is shouting at us…

CAPTION I dropped into these men’s lives in the middle of tragedy.

SARGE VASQUEZ!

Page 2

Panel 1

Vasquez, heavily armed (maybe a mech suit?) chewing a cigar, cocking a fire arm.

SARGE (OFF) Light ’em up!

Panel 2

Close up of Vasquez, smiling.

VASQUEZ With pleasure Sarge!

Panel 3

Close up of Vasquez’s weaponary unleashing hell.

SFX BUDDABUDDABUDDABUBDDABUDDABUDDA

Page 3

Panel 1

Bugs are being blow apart

Panel 2

Close up of Demarco, watching the carnage, he’s no longer firing his gun.

DEMARCO Hahah, lookit them!

Panel 3

He takes aim at one lone critter, smiling as he does so.

DEMARCO Now, where do you think you’re off to you,

PAGE 4

PANEL 1

He fires, behind him something larger lurks. (maybe a bigger bug like creature, or some sort of assemblage of them)

DEMARCO HAHAHAHA! GOTCHA!

PANEL 2

Rodriquez, aiming at the creatures, spots tthe thing behind demarco

Rodriquez DEMARCO!

Page 5

Splash, Demarco gutted by the bug monster/thing

SFX SPLEURCHHHH!

Page 6

Panel 1

Close up of Rodriquez as he sees Demarco

Rodriquez SUNOFA…

Panel 2

Rodriquez splays the demarco gutting creature with gunfire

Panel 3

We see the creature get blow away, Demarco is on the ground.

Page 7

Panel 1

Rodrueqiz is nursing the head of Demarco

Demarco It’s… It’s getting … dark.

Rodruqeiz Naw man, stick with me soldier. You’re good…

Panel 2

Demarco, essentially missing the lower half of his body (maybe it’s around somewhere), Roriquez nursing him (upset, knows it’s a lie)

Rodriquez You’ll make it…

And… that’s it for the first bit. The caption at the start is because after I’d laid out the bullet points, I decided I’d add narration from our new guys POV throughout, something that’ll add just a little layer about who he his and his self doubt and his rising to the challenge.

Anyway, it’s aliens and I don’t care…

If I allowed myself any self doubt on this I will not do it, but by making a conscious decision to go “doesn’t matter if this is bad, it’s mine. I’m doing this for me” it’s been easier to get this far. 

Now I’m gonna do some character design and maybe see if I can draw a page or two of this silly thing… (before attempting more script!)

Untitled 64 Page Digest Graphic Novel

I’ve been thinking about doing a 64 digest graphic novel for some time, I love the format (if you’re from the UK it’s most commonly known as the commando comics format) and a few years ago I documented how I think such a thing could become an ideal kickstarter format. 

To run down the basics of it:

64 pages, digest sized (one – three panels per page) is actually, probably equivalent to a 16 page comic book. So actually pretty reasonable to get down while doing other work. Then you’ve 64 pages of original art that could be packaged and sold with copies of the book at a premium rate (lets say you split the pages in to A and B groupings, or say Splash and Continuity pages, and then you offer a fixed page price at say, £100 for a splash and £60 for a continuity page) which both include a copy of the comic, and say you have approx 40 continuity pages (a potential total of £2,400) and 24 splash pages (a potential total of £2,400) you’re looking at, at say 64 people being able to fund £ 4,800 of the book (I mean realistically you’re looking at a lot less people than that buying original art, but it’s NOT that outrageous and these are the ceiling figures).

Obviously, you’ve got to factor in production and postage costs too, but actually if you can get 4k out of sales of 60 or so people, then you can afford to print 500 copies, and the rest of the sales become pure profit.

AND — if you can do better than that, well, that’s amazing and actually makes it not only a fun little side project but a viable source of income in your career. Money from that can pay you to do the next one and the next and so on. 

But there’s a few things that have killed it – one has been covid. I was originally mulling this all over pre-covid .The other dampener, oddly has been feature creep and people volunteering to write stuff for me. I have no idea how long a project like this will take, and once you bring someone else in to it, there are expectations of and suddenly it’s not quite yours any more. 

I think, as an artist, I’m pretty good at subsuming myself into the story I’m telling. It’s rare I’ll add story elements unless I’ve talked it over with a writer and suggested things, BEFORE they’ve committed anything to paper. Once they’ve written it, it is locked in as far as I’m concerned. But I could spend two months drawing a writers story between things, and find myself running a kickstarter and getting a handful of backers and now I’ve let down myself and the writer… Anyway, I think in the back of my head I’ve always pictured this as being high risk, low reward, which is the worst kind of project to rope anyone else in to. So I needed to do one for myself, by myself. I mean, if it works and is a rip roaring success, let me tell you I will NOT be long in contacting some writer friends who I’m sure would love to do this (but I‘d only do it if I could pay them something like a page rate first)

Anyway, I’ve plotted a little story for one issue of this, a one off that – I freely admit comes out of love of various things and I’m gonna embrace the cliches, and is probably a little weak and not great and etc, but I’m doing this for me, so if it’s weak I’ll suffer through it  (it will be fun to draw, if nothing else) (I mean I’ve drawn for Rob Williams, Gordon Rennie, Garth Ennis, Kenneth Niemand, and more, so I’m used to working with writers who know what the f they’re doing…. so of COURSE it will look ropy in comparison).

So, the question is, how in to the weeds do you want me to get in this here patreon about this project (which may or may not hit a dead end?) I’ve got today to do some writing, and probably nothing for a few weeks, but then the how of writing might turn out to be an easier task than I thought (I’m writing it in bullet point fashion, each page is one bullet point, each bullet point contains one to three sentences with each sentence being a panel)

The genesis for the story is that moment in Aliens where PFC Hudson asks “Is this gonna be stand up fight, sir, or another bug hunt?” And while this isn’t aliens fan fiction (and isn’t space marine fan fiction either for that matter) we follow a team of Marines, as they encounter something much more horrifying than a bug hunt.

(am I tempted to call it Bug Hunters and ask Jerry Paris for both permission AND a cover? yes. YES I AM)

March madness Journal 27th March – 2 April 2023

Attached some art from what I’ve drawn this month, it amounts to one episode of Dredd, two episodes of Leopard from Lime Street, and one 10 page one off by Paul Cornell (no images, sorry!) for Ahoy.

Penciled 28 pages this month, and inked 46 – a number so insane, I’m not sure it’s accurate, but I guess it must be? (certainly the ticks in my weekly diary suggest it is)

Anyway. My prodigious rate has slowed, to a not unreasonable but still a bit bonkers one complete page per day, seven days per week. I think I can afford to slow to about 6 pages per week, and have a day off. Wherein I might … do unpaid comics work (because I am incapable of very little else)

six pages per week, over four weeks is 24 pages, at, say a reasonable page rate (this isn’t my actual page rate, but a good ballpark to work with) around £150 is £3,600 per month (about £43k per year), a third going to the taxman means your take home is £2,400. (Don’t weep for me, I know this is good money)

But that’s never how this stuff goes. Far more likely I hit a couple of months of forty pages then absoloutly nothing at all for a few months. Or I do a graphic novel for £100 per page on the hope the backend will see me right (or because there was literally no other work in the offing).

I love my job but if there was a way to do it and earn a regular fixed salary with sickness and holiday pay, I’d jump at it.

Work Journal 13/March/2023 – 26/March/2023

Forgive me father, it has been two weeks since my last confession.

This sometimes (no, I mean, this frequently) happens. My record keeping gets sloppy as I slow down and things are a little less structured and more chaotic.

Let’s take the 13/March – 19/March Dred Judge Dredd strip for Rob Williams, episode 1 (of 8) decided to go analogue with the inking of this… that was, it turns out, a bad call. Pure greed on my part. I can sell Dredd pages. Unfortunately I’m just no longer equiped (literally, physically and mentally) to draw on paper any more. I just wasn’t happy with the results. I was getting no-as-good-results drawn much slower and for no real positive outcomes. So, two pages in I abandoned it and went back to digital. Monday/Tuesday I managed to do two pages, like cleaving the art out of stone. One page of inks per day. Then Wednesday I inked three pages digitally. Thu I finished it. But then had a whole bunch of corrections to do to Bad Magic – a hat band that had got progressivly larger as the strip went on, needed to be pulled back a bit.

Thursday I had three scripts on my table and I had no idea which way to proceed. So I planned out which I’d do, then abandoned that plan immediately, and instead started on another episode of the Leopard from Lime Street. 

I think I have two more episodes of that to draw then it’s on hiatus, sadly.

Outside of that all, we had a wall yanked down and replaced with a fence. I bought a house and this is the start of me trying to make it my own. I’ve wanted to do this since we bought the place, and as my wife likes to remind me, I was out chatting to those guys all the time (I thought they enjoyed it! I just needed the company)

Nice to watch people who know what they’re doing, do stuff I know I’m not even remotely capable of!

WE BUILT THAT WALL!

Anyway, also had visitors to the house that week or so too. So in all bit chaotic.

Total completed that week: Inks 1 page, pencils 9 pages.

The next week – 20/March/23, the builders were still building and I’d got in to a slow, but reliable pattern. Really I operate on a two page thing per day minimum. Two pages of pencils or two page of inks. That way I can reasonably say I can do one completed page per week, and I can predict about six completed pages per week. OF COURSE, I’d like to go faster (and often do) but also life throws the odd random factor in your face and you’ve gotta dodge it.

This week has just been me finishing the Leopard from Lime street, and starting a new 10 pager for Ahoy with Paul Cornell. Featuring goofy cryptids. 

I didn’t find time this week, though I should have (and might do so tonight) to sketch out some character designs for this image pitch I’m planning on (which I’ve had to scale back from 16 pages – a full story – to doing six pages – a “pitch” amount, because… well… time really)

This week’s work was Inks 6 and pencils 9.

This month to date, I’ve drawn 37 pages of inks and 21 pages of pencils. Which… wow, slightly surprised by.

Year to date: 107 pages inks, 115 pages of pencils.

Putting me on course for 428(ish) pages this year, if I can keep it up. (I don’t think I can)

Anyway, next week’s plans are: finish this ahoy strip, and see if I can find time to do this Image pitch and then MORE DREDD.

(SHH! TELL NO ONE… I have a story about the below first page – which won’t see print for blooming ages, so please don’t spread this around – but I’ll tell it to you all next week.)

Weekly Journal 6-March-2023 to 12 March 2023

Being ye olde weekly journal as recorded in the annals of comic artist PJ Holden…

I dunno, is this stuff interesting?

This was the week I finally finished Skulduggery Pleasant…

Anyways, lets talk about my week – monday, deadline for leopard – we’ll that hurdle was cleared the previous week. Went up to Newcastle (NI) to see my bruve, ended up inking one page..

Tue caught a bloody mouse, discovered on Wed – when the council arrived – that there was a bloody great big mousehole in the bathroom that let them get in from the walls. So he dropped poison down there…

Finished Skulduggery, started Dredd Poison, me and Rob Williams, 8 weeks. Pretty pleased with how part 1 is shaping up, should be a good un.

So, this week I inked 14 pages and penciled 6. Which isn’t bad at all.

Also, decided to ink Dredd traditionally, I’ll be honest, there’s a horribly mercenery reason behind this – I can sell these pages and they should have a lot of Dredd on them, so worth having. But, also, I haven’t drawn on paper in ages (I want to say a year but I have a horrible suspicion it’s been closer to three) and it’s just nice to see marks on paper again.